Whoever came up with that quote obviously never had the opportunity to appreciate what they had.
Maybe it was an early wake up call that made me appreciate the person I miss every day, and I take some comfort from the fact that we had a great time while it lasted, and I’ll always be thankful that I had the opportunity to spend the time that I did with such a special person.
Dark days come and fortunately they do go, which got me to thinking about what I’ve got now that I can be thankful for. It goes without saying that the family I have left and friends mean so much to me and have helped keep me afloat for which I am grateful.
But if I couldn’t run I don’t know where I’d be now.
And I guess that’s where these random musings are leading. I know how lucky I am to be able to run, the places running has taken me and the people I’ve met. Running has become my own personal therapy and a lifeline.
And so I find it somewhat frustrating that I seem unable to reign myself in on runs. It’s a release, a safe place to vent my frustrations and anger …. unless you’re a careless dog owner or driver of course ! But I also know I have the potential to injure myself if I continue at the same intensity on every run, which is why I’m grateful for another wake up call.
I’ve had a bit of a niggle that I’ve been trying to manage and so I took a self-imposed rest for a week which affected me how I knew it would. I’ve gently eased myself back in and am glad to be back out on the road again.
I’m now hoping, despite a speedy 10 miles today, that my sensible head will make an appearance. I originally planned to ‘look’ at a race this year to target for a PB, but I’ve now decided that my original plan to just survive and complete the year will be my priority. Prompted by my extreme phobia of a sedentary life and humbled by peoples generosity, I feel I owe it to everyone to slow down and get them all done.
I know what it feels like to lose the most important part of my life ….. it’s not a good place to be.
Roll on Friday.
“Wisely and slow; they stumble that run fast”